Wednesday, June 29, 2011

picture me {im}perfectly.focusing.

i love how the Lord works.
sometimes i wish it didn't take me so long to catch on.
summers have usually been hard on me.
this year the Lord has been so gracious.
i have truly enjoyed most of it so far.

my main problem is focus.
it hit me tonight like a ton of bricks.
i have a.d.d.
in a big way.
focusing has always been a problem.(since i was little.)
and it is SO frustrating.
my friend described it as a traffic jam.

i left tonight to have some time by myself.
because i do not get much of this treasured time as of late.
i needed it.
major traffic jam.
it has been on yellow.light. for some time now.

i go to chick-fil-a.
library parking lot.
eat my sandwich.
drive off.
go to a park.
text with friend.
talk to friend.
dump truck. (love you, lo.)

feel a whole lot better.
write a letter.
pull out the book.
skim over parts.
ahhhh.  like fresh air.

"when laundry is for the dozen arms of children or the dozen legs, it's true, i think i'm due some appreciation.  so comes a storm of trouble and lightning strikes joy.  but when Christ is the center, when dishes, laundry, work, is my song of thanks to Him, joy rains.  passionately serving Christ alone makes us the loving servant to all.  when the eyes of the heart focus on God, and the hands on always washing the feet of Jesus alone - the bone, they sing joy, and the work returns to its purest state: eucharisteo.  The work becomes worship, a liturgy of thankfulness."  Ann Voskamp, 1000 Gifts.

when i focus on myself.
i am robbing myself of joy.
by refocusing on why i do what i do.
focusing on Jesus.
is like a breath of fresh air.
rejuvenates me.
empty to fill.

and fill He does.
sweet reminders of His love for me.
He tenderly woos me back.
centered on Him.
it is all for Him.

                                                            picture me {im}perfectly
is a weekly project to reveal that we don't have it all together.

i will post a 
picture me {im}perfectly
blog post every wednesday 
where you will be able to link up to your blog
revealing that:

you are not picture perfect,
your kids are not picture perfect,
your house is not picture perfect,
your crafts are not always picture perfect,

inspire and 
other women 
that none of us have it all together. 

i just went to sweet, hill's blog and she featured me again this week.  thanks, girl.  i laughed out loud.  cause my last picture me {im}perfectly was pretty rough;)  but, we have to be real.  right?  :)  i also can't wait to post pictures of my organization of mac's room.

676.  swimming breast stroke with mac today.  he beat me.
677.  lawson doing a dive off the diving board.  she is five.  WHAT?
678.  two days until i am with my fam in bama. yea haw.
679.  a husband who greets me with a kiss and tells me i am beautiful.
680.  a husband who extends grace to me when i don't hear the compliments he gives me.
681.  Jesus.


hill said...

beautiful. simply beautiful. i needed to hear this today.

Jackie said...

Thanks for your sweet comment yesterday. I love your honest posts too! :) And your post last week ... I've completely been there and done that too. I just went to this parenting conference by Paul Tripp, one section was all about this. You're so not alone.

Head Lima Bean said...

Every time I visit your blog I want to visit the field in your picture and you remind me that the. Book isn't just a book I read but one that needs to come off of my shelf and be reread often.